What a film can do to me

People think that films can be delusional, that we watch them for the sake of living in another fantasy world, that what we refuse to be reality, we can find in films, that films, are the sole reason why we crave for more, want for more, unsatisfied with what we already have.

A film can haunt me, destroy me, traumatize me, romanticize me, teach me, appreciate me, show me. Provoke me. A film provokes me, in ways that no other person will EVER. I leave Little Children thinking I must take chances. I leave A Guide to Recognizing Your Saints thinking about never abandoning those who love me. I leave the Illusionist feeling all the mystique in the world walking back home. I leave The Departed excited, dis-disappointed of the new version. I leave Accepted remembering the feeling I had in high school. I leave Amelie extremely hopeful of a quirky and fresh life. I leave every one, feeling things I could not have possibly felt. And what did I feel? Only the natural. Only the provoking. Only the thought. And that is, something I cannot possibly live without. It's not even about leaving a film thinking something. It's about watching Munich or watching a film about football, or the Italian version of The Last Kiss, that enchants the natural existing within me. It's only the natural, and the natural is a thirst for thought and life and everything that surrounds the two. Why people never watch a film or desire to go to the theater baffles me. The power of a room filled up by emotional and passionate people pacing themselves along the vibrating sounds from those gigantic speakers--it's unspeakable. No one ever speaks about it, its power, but everyone feels it.

I am amazed by what a film can do to me. And when I look back on this post, I will seriously have thought I was high on something. But the walk back from a theater only makes this all so clear again each and every time.